I live a very multi-dimensional life.
I realize many people don’t experience and perceive life in the same way I do, so I’ve decided to share a bit about what it is like to be me. What it’s like to live in my head.
I am never just here, in this reality. Just in this layer.
My awareness has simultaneously been in different levels of existence my whole life, I have never only been here and here alone; during the last few years though, I have gone much further up into the layers of me than ever before, and I have managed to maintain my awareness in so many places at once.
I can see clearly within the many layers of this reality and within the alternate timelines of our Earth. It’s like clear pictures that I can flip through, as if through a book. Whenever I stop at one picture, at one alternate reality, the page comes to life. Sometimes I can even step within that parallel experience, and observe for a while. Some of these alternate realities are in super futuristic societies, others in much more backwards expressions, other are very totalitarian, others in such full awareness, others completely devastated, others overtaken by AI fully. Others are already running their own hyper realistic simulations. It’s endless.
I can then push to a level beyond that. A level where I see all the alternate timelines at once, as if from outside. From far away. A completely different level above. I don’t just move through one at a time, but I can truly perceive them all at once. This giant creation, that exists on so many levels, in so many varieties, all at once. As an entity in and of itself in a sense.
I can see the infinite library of alternate timelines, and the entirety of non-linear time, from above.
Then I can move at the galactic level. And intergalactic level. I can often see potentials and timelines happening within many aspects of the universe. I can sometimes peek into all the alternate solar systems, galaxies, civilizations, the history of the expansion, all of it, and then I can step within those different pictures and observe. I can see the many alternate expressions of frequency. The expansion of the universe can be so different. Each dance is unique. Each frequency creation looks and moves differently. So many variations of consciousness and form. So many races. So many stories. So many ways of life.
I can then push even one step further, and go completely beyond this universe, outside of it, and see all the layers of it happening at once. Then I can also take a look around and observe all the alternate universes. The multi-verse. And all the multi-verses.
I struggle to find any words to describe what I see at the level of the multi-verse, and then at the level of the alternate multi-verses. Just the act of being within that space is so profound, and enormous, that it can really devastate my body. It can also devastate me emotionally and mentally. To experience such awareness, with no limitations, is so contradictory to my limited capacity in this life, and my limited body, that it often feels torturous to then return within this timeline. It isn’t easy to return from a place where I can fly, teleport, communicate with all life, connect to all of creation, back within this current constricted construct, where our abilities and our freedom and sovereignty are so absent. It feels suffocating, and it often keeps me right on the edge.
I sometimes also can push all the way to the level above all creations, all multi-verses, all creators, all potentials. To the absolute origin point within myself. The true core essence. The true internal state of self. The true home. Me.
I can only grasp moments at a time from there. The intensity of that is far too much, I don’t do it often. However, when I do, for a second I can truly feel the entirety of all that I am. The eternity in all directions of all that I have ever been, or ever could be. Every potential of every creation around me. And within me. It’s a state of infinite potential. Unlimited. It’s very difficult to communicate the full feeling of home. The full feeling of me.
I struggle to even begin to find words, this is something that everyone needs to experience for themselves. Because it is so unique. We are all so unique in our infinite potentials.
I can travel at will usually, and can connect to aspects of my higher self quite instantaneously. I fully live each experience internally, but because of how different certain realities or universes are to this one, I often have no eyes or ears or language to be able to translate it in human concepts. When I am having an experience that is outside of the capacity of this body, I can’t bring anything back, except for feelings. Other times, I can bring back clear visuals, or sounds, words. I am constantly working on finding the language to communicate what I am experiencing. Sometimes I am successful and efficient, other times I can struggle with one sentence, or one word, for days, weeks, before I find the most accurate way to relate it to others.
It is by no means an easy task. Because my body is quite frail most of the time, and very sensitive, I limit the time that I spend traveling the cosmos, and when I do, I like to stop along the way and take notes. Later I can come back to my notes, rather than have to always go back within the actual cosmos. By now I have notebooks full of sketches, drawings, numbers, words, memories. My own library of the universe in a sense. And this library is ever increasing, directly proportional to however many alternate timelines I can move through and observe.
Another aspect of my every day life is that I need to also take care of myself very well.
I practice strict self-discipline in everything. I am always working on being fully honest and self-transparent. Always aware of all aspects, all corners of me. I never hide from anything within myself. It’s all out in the open. And this isn’t easy to do. I have to be aware at all times of all aspects within me, so that none can come sneak up on me. It’s a lot of daily practice to actually not go into hiding about anything, or slack behind, or get lazy about it. I try to be fully authentic to myself. And as much as I can, authentic in my behavior in this reality also.
But above all else, I always try to really feel within the full depths of me. I hold nothing back. I feel fully.
And it’s a constant commitment. Especially when I decide to write and share something with others. I need to constantly navigate through the entire depth of my feelings, emotions, thoughts. And be so so open, and so honest in all ways with myself, so that no unaddressed aspects of me can subconsciously sneak up on me, and distort what I am communicating. It’s quite intensive self-work.
Of course, I am not infallible, I have my ups and downs, and my emotions and thoughts can sometimes get the best of me, but I’ve learned to be aware when a distortion from within comes up, and I always allow myself to return to a place of balance, before I communicate anything externally. I try to be responsible with what I share, I take it very seriously, and this involves constant work on myself.
Also, for me to be able to enter a reality, a universe, or to move through many of them at once, I need to use a lot of my own energy. Physically this is overwhelming and my body immediately reacts to the supercharged experience. The intensity can really burn me out, and I have to be careful to not stay within this state of awareness for too long at once.
And I need long recovery times afterwards.
I put quite a bit of effort into eating well, and living a healthy life, and resting as well as I can. I suffer from a number of auto-immune issues, as a result of vaccine damage, after I had the HPV shot almost 9 years ago. And my body has been in a constant battle to function ever since. If I want to be functional, and be somewhat capable to physically undertake my multi-verse travels, and communicate that externally, and also handle this life here at the same time, then I really need to look after myself. Very well. I haven’t touched any sugar or flour, or basically anything bad, in over 2 years now. My body is too weak to withstand both me, my awareness, my vaccine damage, and toxic stuff and bad lifestyle on top of all that. So I have lots of self-discipline about how I live my life.
It’s not always perfect, and I go through periods of time when my body still falls apart, and I go through bouts of physical pain and I have to stop, and just take a full break from everything. But overall I have regained over 80% of my functionality.
Had I not had the vaccine, I believe I would have been able to handle the depth of all the layers that I can feel at all times, naturally, without any ill effects on this body. After the vaccine though, navigating the multi-verse really takes a toll on me. At times a bad one. So I need to be careful.
I haven’t yet found a way to fully reverse the damage, and regenerate my body, just ways to maintain it. To handle it. I haven’t yet figured out if the damage is permanent, within this body. Sometimes it can be for some people, I’m hoping it’s not though, in my case. And well, of course, I long to return home. Within the layers outside of this layer, where existence is so different, and limitation is non-existent. I long for my full potential. For my true body.
But overall, I guess I wanted to share with you what the underlying dynamic of my life is. And the layers of experience that I move through at all times. I also wanted to share with you how I come to get all the information on this blog. I literally live it within my being, on all layers of my being. I can navigate it at will, from my most fullest aspect. I don’t take anything from anywhere outside of myself.
I will share more of my every day experiences within the coming articles in the section My journey.
I’m excited to document my days, and all that I am experiencing and traversing, and then share it with you. Thanks for reading so far, and I would love to hear more about how some of you experience life daily. How far through the levels can you push? How high up through the layers can you move at will? Any? Many? Would be so cool to hear other perspectives on life.